Silent Conversations

...when she's tired of ranting out loud...

An attempt to unclutter life

Have you ever experienced feeling damn low and you can't

figure out what's causing it? This is one of the most annoying habit

I've developed unconsciously. Call it slight insanity or whatever.

It's not good. Not beneficial. First of all, if you're sad, you should be able

to find out why. But "why" sometimes is the most difficult question to

answer.

Now, to break or at least revive me from this unamusing habit,

I manage to apply the process of elimination. Select from an

array of possible reasons why I'm sad. Eliminate the silly, mundane

ones and focus on the sensible causes. This method however,

will bring my mind to a level of utter hopelessness and confusion.

Most likely, my mind and my heart will begin to debate and negotiate.

This too, I tell you is exhausting. Usually, the process of elimination ends

well, I mean, no matter what the "chosen" reason is - that's that. But

if this process present itself as a futile attempt (for my mind and heart

get entangled to the web of "sad-factors that it is supposed to organize),

I resort to a more easy, yet unreliable way, that is - if there are too many reasons to

consider; pick the most dominant and simple reason. And so far, this tops it all:

 " The ability to ask is given, yet denied at times when an unidentified

emotional barrier is present." (what?!)

..... hehe. even then, I can't turn my feelings into proper clear expressions.

What's my next move?

posted by: wawayni at 17:38 | link | whisper it to me, baby [ comments ]

 

What's life without....

Surprisingly, I'm coping..

much better than I expected.

Everyday is a struggle

between joy and grief.

But it doesn't hurt that much anymore.

If I do get hurt, it's just between

me and my irritating paranoia.

I haven't entirely let go

but right now, I'm preoccupied

letting go of Anger, Regret and

Wishful thinking.

Your absence encouraged me to choose

strength when it was a lot easier to

find comfort in oblivion.

The words that you left me,

yes, the ones that  used to insult me

Now, make sense...

You actually made sense way back then.

If only I  had listened patiently and ignored

the emotion-charged phrases.

I'm in control now.. well mostly.

I have to, because it's just me and

my will everyday.

Well, of course not....

Oh, you know what I mean.

I still cry, however for the many things I lost with you

But let's just put it this way, they were yours

still are, and will always be yours.

Now I know what I have.

And I am willing to share.

... you.

posted by: wawayni at 19:24 | link | whisper it to me, baby [ comments (4) ]

The JOY of teaching English...

Although my students are having a hard time expressing

themselves in English... this does not stop them from

doing their vocabulary homework. trust me, this is more than

i bargained for.

 

ON BEING SPONTANEOUS:

word: Spontaneous

definition: happening without being made to happen

sentence: "FART IS A SPONTANEOUS PHENOMENON."

 

ON "GRABBING"

word: grab

definition: to seize the attention of

sentence: "I TRIED TO GRAB THE WAITRESS' EYES IN THE RESTAURANT."

 

more to come....

posted by: wawayni at 16:06 | link | whisper it to me, baby [ comments ]

When God says, NO.

It is wise to shut up.

posted by: wawayni at 14:57 | link | whisper it to me, baby [ comments ]

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